Look at me preaching out to tumblr when I can't even live by my own beliefs. I have this girl, who rejected me once and here I am scared to death by thinking about asking her again... I just don't know what to do. I need help, thats what. Some of you may say "dude, its been way too long", and you're right. Its been 2 years now. I liked her on november of 2009 and I never stopped since. Yeah, yeah I might turn out to be like Nguyen, but I'm willing to take that chance since I know myself and my limits.
"Grow some balls! or You're such a girl!", yeah i know jackie, I'm working on that too, haha.
I'm just too afraid.
I'm just too afraid to tell her I love her
too afraid that those 2 letters will touch and shatter me like a rock through glass
too afraid that I will never find another person like her in my life
to tell her that even in times when I'm happy, and when I think of her, I calm down as if I got shot, like in the movies. Standing there, staying very still, contemplating on whether or not she would ever like me, even a little. I don't toss around the word "Love" that often nor do I ever get a chance to say it that often, but when I think I feel it, I know that as least something of that caliber is there.
There are thousands of thoughts running through my head right now as I'm typing this, here are a few:
1. Would girls go "awww" to this? because this is straight up sad. A boy just trying to figure things is turned into rubble by a mere mortal girl
2.I have school work due this week, midterms and finals are coming up, will I pass? How about summer school? summer plans?
3.I think jackie would come kick down my door, take a chair and bash it against my head and yell at me as do many other people I think I know.
4.What the fuck am I doing right now? should I take this down? should I not post this? should I leave it up for a day and then take it down? should I just throw this out there and hope for the best?
Persistence, is it really a good trait to have? Ugh. I'm just about vented out.
Goodnight.
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2 comments:
Ohhh wow. This post was ballsy lol well I think you should just ask. If you keep waiting, it's going to bug you more and you're going to regret not telling her sooner. Just get it over with and hope for the best
i'll ask her myself. problem solved.
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