out of all the stars in the universe,
out of all the infinite amount of space,
out of all the solar systems,
out of all the planets,
among all the thousands of beings known and unknown,
among all the trillions of lives existing,
why did you have to come into mine?
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You're like the Queen of Hearts,
tucked safely within a deck,
at least then,
I know you're there and when it's my turn,
I wish I drew you out.
I wish I got to know you,
get the winning feeling as you,
to know you before you get shuffled back into hiding,
with all your courts and constants,
it suites you just fine.
Through hell and chance, I bet.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Fuck it
Like all great societies rules sometimes need to be bent or broken depending on a reasonable situation, even it one is going to contradict oneself. Sometimes some rules ARE meant to be broken to show progress. Saying this, I am going to free up myself from my contract for a bit. The best analogy is J-walking, everyone does it all the time, but never actually do it when there are situations where you can't (cops around). So blogging and AIM will be on my watch-myself list since I can procrastinate on these, kinda. Using Blogger to share my day's story whenever I have time or whenever I have important news. AIM will be there because I sometimes have questions and the people that have the answers sometimes only answer on AIM so, keeping AIM should be a plus side.
So looking over shit over these past few weeks into 2010, there has been so much shit going on already. From starting FAFSA, to the girl's tennis banquet, to people hooking up that took my a while to realize even though I won't accept it. Also, looking at Liz's, currently active blogging-ness, inspired me to write a fairly decent length blog :). So I'll start there, Liz mentioned the "Buried Life", where a group of guys writes down and combines their bucket list. In return, for every one thing they accomplish on their list, they will help a random stranger accomplish one of their goals. That is what I want to do in my life, never knowing what to do, what route to take, what field of job to go into... the "Buried Life" is what I want to do. I probably wont start it now, or start it a few months from now, but when the time, I feel, is right, I'll definitely do it.
FAFSA... is a bitch because of all the income tax information and the amount of times that I needed to type out my Social security number... I actually remember mine now, it actually feels good to know it haha. Anyways, 2009 incomes will be all out of wack. My dad's been laid off due to company bankruptcy for a majority of the year and then finding a new job at the last 3 to 4 months of 2009 and receiving worker compensation checks... I just hope FAFSA will give me enought money to pay for the first year of college for me. Speaking of college, I've currently gotten accepted into CSUN and CSULA, which at least, my back up schools are in place. It's actually starting to hit me of how scary it will be once those rejection letter(s) get sent... hopefully *knock on wood* that I wont be seeing more then 2.
The girl's tennis banquet was a blast even though I thought of going a little late, resulting in me to ride in back of Ryan N.'s sage green Toyota Corrola's trunk just so I can see what the girl's banquets feel like compared to the guys. In my opinion, excluding the food, the vibe is so much more...evenly flowed. Maybe I was thinking of the word organized. Raining, but still pretty fun to see everyone doing their thing and everyone's faces lighting up. Dick got lots of presents haha, the blow-up cane was so funny. The boy's team is going to have to top it this year >:D. You know, not being pessimistic here, but it just felt awkward for me... seeing how, without Ryan N. and Jack Ngo talking to me after the banquet, I would just be the loser sitting in nunez's chair doing my AP comp sci homework on her computer and struggling to write a correct program... but that's just me.
Liane and Martin... I'm sorry Martin, but in your case, I don't think it's going to be a match... I'll be be the first to say it. I just feel it in my gut that you two aren't going to last a long time, hopefully it works out and you guys show me wrong. Whatever.
So far, in my classes, everything is going into neutral and in some cases, a little gas on the peddle. I need to rape the next 2 calculus exams with B+ or higher to get a B to A- in the class and rape the next few programs/theory quizes in comp sci to get an A. Riemers... I dont know, maybe I will try to get a B in the class, but right now, it's no different than being in Mendelsohn's... In government, I have to stay solid and read up in details and actually use the study sheets he gives up to get a B+ to an A in the class... So far, reportcard speaking... I'm slowly catching up to par.
tennis... sigh, haven't played for a week and my arm is getting a little uneasy and want to swing at stuff haha. Hopefully I can get my serves down because I need to get confidence on my second serves...
Washing my carpet tomorrow... so I don't think i'll be on for a majority of the day seeing how my dad will want me to do this, or doing that... whatever... I'm all blogged out for a while.
So looking over shit over these past few weeks into 2010, there has been so much shit going on already. From starting FAFSA, to the girl's tennis banquet, to people hooking up that took my a while to realize even though I won't accept it. Also, looking at Liz's, currently active blogging-ness, inspired me to write a fairly decent length blog :). So I'll start there, Liz mentioned the "Buried Life", where a group of guys writes down and combines their bucket list. In return, for every one thing they accomplish on their list, they will help a random stranger accomplish one of their goals. That is what I want to do in my life, never knowing what to do, what route to take, what field of job to go into... the "Buried Life" is what I want to do. I probably wont start it now, or start it a few months from now, but when the time, I feel, is right, I'll definitely do it.
FAFSA... is a bitch because of all the income tax information and the amount of times that I needed to type out my Social security number... I actually remember mine now, it actually feels good to know it haha. Anyways, 2009 incomes will be all out of wack. My dad's been laid off due to company bankruptcy for a majority of the year and then finding a new job at the last 3 to 4 months of 2009 and receiving worker compensation checks... I just hope FAFSA will give me enought money to pay for the first year of college for me. Speaking of college, I've currently gotten accepted into CSUN and CSULA, which at least, my back up schools are in place. It's actually starting to hit me of how scary it will be once those rejection letter(s) get sent... hopefully *knock on wood* that I wont be seeing more then 2.
The girl's tennis banquet was a blast even though I thought of going a little late, resulting in me to ride in back of Ryan N.'s sage green Toyota Corrola's trunk just so I can see what the girl's banquets feel like compared to the guys. In my opinion, excluding the food, the vibe is so much more...evenly flowed. Maybe I was thinking of the word organized. Raining, but still pretty fun to see everyone doing their thing and everyone's faces lighting up. Dick got lots of presents haha, the blow-up cane was so funny. The boy's team is going to have to top it this year >:D. You know, not being pessimistic here, but it just felt awkward for me... seeing how, without Ryan N. and Jack Ngo talking to me after the banquet, I would just be the loser sitting in nunez's chair doing my AP comp sci homework on her computer and struggling to write a correct program... but that's just me.
Liane and Martin... I'm sorry Martin, but in your case, I don't think it's going to be a match... I'll be be the first to say it. I just feel it in my gut that you two aren't going to last a long time, hopefully it works out and you guys show me wrong. Whatever.
So far, in my classes, everything is going into neutral and in some cases, a little gas on the peddle. I need to rape the next 2 calculus exams with B+ or higher to get a B to A- in the class and rape the next few programs/theory quizes in comp sci to get an A. Riemers... I dont know, maybe I will try to get a B in the class, but right now, it's no different than being in Mendelsohn's... In government, I have to stay solid and read up in details and actually use the study sheets he gives up to get a B+ to an A in the class... So far, reportcard speaking... I'm slowly catching up to par.
tennis... sigh, haven't played for a week and my arm is getting a little uneasy and want to swing at stuff haha. Hopefully I can get my serves down because I need to get confidence on my second serves...
Washing my carpet tomorrow... so I don't think i'll be on for a majority of the day seeing how my dad will want me to do this, or doing that... whatever... I'm all blogged out for a while.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
5 day til my internet social life comes to a screeching hault.
So Tennis yesterday with Carol, Sidney, Anne, Kelly, Sandy, Tiffanie, William, and Q. It was a while since I played that hard in tennis. My butt was sore from running around and playing a game with Carol. I have to admit though, it was fun :) Even though I popped my racquet... that was a bitch because that means I can't string it til' iono when and I have to go to racket doctors, but since I bestowed upon myself the obligation on my self-contract, I'm probably going to have someone that stays late string me racquet :(
Staying at home is still a downer, all i do all day is think of stuff to do around the house, thinking about what's happening to me so far, and thinking about school... I hate it. I actually want some school work so I can be productive in some ways other than playing stupid computer games all day or watching t.v. sure I have my guitar but guitar practice can only last so long...o yea, listening to music is the only part I like about being at home right now.
Anyways I disabled my FS because the question that get sent to me are just stupid. Most of them just pertain about Sidney or something related... which I don't really want to talk about, so yea. On the plus side, it'll be one less person to ask a question which will rollover to Jackie's FS so I'm sure she'll be happy to answer you question(s).
Goodbye Facebook, Blogger, AIM, Youtube, and all you fun websites. In 5 days I don't know when will I ever get back to you :)
Staying at home is still a downer, all i do all day is think of stuff to do around the house, thinking about what's happening to me so far, and thinking about school... I hate it. I actually want some school work so I can be productive in some ways other than playing stupid computer games all day or watching t.v. sure I have my guitar but guitar practice can only last so long...o yea, listening to music is the only part I like about being at home right now.
Anyways I disabled my FS because the question that get sent to me are just stupid. Most of them just pertain about Sidney or something related... which I don't really want to talk about, so yea. On the plus side, it'll be one less person to ask a question which will rollover to Jackie's FS so I'm sure she'll be happy to answer you question(s).
Goodbye Facebook, Blogger, AIM, Youtube, and all you fun websites. In 5 days I don't know when will I ever get back to you :)
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Monday, January 4, 2010
formspring.me
who do you trust most besides yourself?
Many people, as long as you don't make an ass out of yourself, I can trust you. If not, your world will be in a sky of hurt.
formspring.me
Will I marry someone of good height?
I don't know who you are, but if you want I suppose.
Sunday, January 3, 2010
PacLoot rant + other stuff
PacSun
I HATE YOU!!!
You're so fucken expensive~ $24.00 for a shirt? $50 for a decent hoodie?
You were the reason I missed an hour of my cousin's birthday party, that means I missed an hour of playing "Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2"! I wasted gas to visit you and see nothing on sale and everything you had with a few exceptions is all crazy white guy clothing. Those few exceptions... if I didn't have $30 I wasn't even suppose to look at you!
I should've however took a liking to V-necks because your website DID have a good sale on it. a V-neck for $10, and so if you add in my PacLoot, if you bought 5 V-necks they would only be about $5 each plus a $5 shipping which only leads to $6 a shirt. Sadly I dont think I look anywhere near good with a V-Neck due to my massive, I-can-use-that-as-a-borderline farmer's tan. I should've called Ceejay or one of the Filipinos that like V-necks.... who and I kidding, every Filipino I know wears V-necks >_<" So sad, what a waste.
I'm still liking the dog and the Ceejay like monkey that I got from Las Vegas, I keep them on my computer desk with my Toad from Mario and my Hippo that I named Twiggy.
Tumblr. Thanks Jackie for adding me to your Tumblr list. I think I shall use Tumblr for all my picture posts since that's the only thing I know how to do, I don't even know how to post a profile picture of myself without getting lost. Yup, I'll updated every time Ryan Buenviaje updates his because even though he made a tumblr before me I updated more then he does because he has a life. SOOOO yea. End of that.
I HATE YOU!!!
You're so fucken expensive~ $24.00 for a shirt? $50 for a decent hoodie?
You were the reason I missed an hour of my cousin's birthday party, that means I missed an hour of playing "Call of Duty: Modern Warfare 2"! I wasted gas to visit you and see nothing on sale and everything you had with a few exceptions is all crazy white guy clothing. Those few exceptions... if I didn't have $30 I wasn't even suppose to look at you!
I should've however took a liking to V-necks because your website DID have a good sale on it. a V-neck for $10, and so if you add in my PacLoot, if you bought 5 V-necks they would only be about $5 each plus a $5 shipping which only leads to $6 a shirt. Sadly I dont think I look anywhere near good with a V-Neck due to my massive, I-can-use-that-as-a-borderline farmer's tan. I should've called Ceejay or one of the Filipinos that like V-necks.... who and I kidding, every Filipino I know wears V-necks >_<" So sad, what a waste.
I'm still liking the dog and the Ceejay like monkey that I got from Las Vegas, I keep them on my computer desk with my Toad from Mario and my Hippo that I named Twiggy.
Tumblr. Thanks Jackie for adding me to your Tumblr list. I think I shall use Tumblr for all my picture posts since that's the only thing I know how to do, I don't even know how to post a profile picture of myself without getting lost. Yup, I'll updated every time Ryan Buenviaje updates his because even though he made a tumblr before me I updated more then he does because he has a life. SOOOO yea. End of that.
Friday, January 1, 2010
New Years Resolution
-My Self-Contract of course. (See my Facebook Notes for more detail)
-Just plain work harder.
-Try to be more outgoing
-Have more self-confidence
-Stop drinking soda unless there's no other choice
-control strict consumption of fast foods/junk foods
-Try to work out (running,push ups,lift some weights, etc.)
-Work on time management
-[I know there's at least one last thing to change for 2010 so I'll put this spot as a freebie]
-Just plain work harder.
-Try to be more outgoing
-Have more self-confidence
-Stop drinking soda unless there's no other choice
-control strict consumption of fast foods/junk foods
-Try to work out (running,push ups,lift some weights, etc.)
-Work on time management
-[I know there's at least one last thing to change for 2010 so I'll put this spot as a freebie]
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